I’ve always known I was meant to be a mother. Even as a child I was told I was a natural with children. If a fussy baby needed calming, within minutes in my arms all was well. Being around children and babies always just felt like perfection to me. I went into parenthood completely prepared to be the perfect mother.
Within weeks of bringing home my first precious little bundle, I knew that being a mother was amazing and joyful, but also more challenging than I had anticipated. My baby girl went through a period of pretty intense fussiness. Call it “colic,” call it “gas,” call it “over-stimulation;” for me it was called the closest I’ve been to insanity. I cannot put words to the frustration and helplessness associated with an inconsolable baby. I was completely at a loss. I, the self-proclaimed baby whisperer, could not calm my own baby.
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